Oh this thing called life....

It feels like one thing after another. Its remarkable how after all that has happened in the past 3 months, I still find myself so outrageously happy. I guess you can attribute that to an outstanding boyfriend, amazing friends (both in CS and SA...tehehe), and the fact that I keep telling myself over and over again that this is just God testing my faith and that soon the clouds are going to part. I know that soon everything will be ok. Even though it isn't long before things will change again. I hope that while things change, they will be for the better that will make me stronger. And wiser. I've changed so much recently. I guess they're changes God felt I needed to make.

I guess we'll stay tuned to where the future takes me.

"Life's about changing, nothing ever stays the same."

Should feel like summer tonight...

Long weekend of moving and getting situated, but I think this living situation is going to be pretty awesome.

Tonight the boys are going to Champions to shoot so they can practice before taking their CHL tests. Therefore, Tati and I are going to go eat sushi, then lounge by the pool, and I'm going to have a few beers. It'll be nice to pretend for once that I have nothing to do and no deadlines and that I can just be.

Tomorrow= jason + meg 9 months. Whoop!!!!

Always never the same.

Life these past few weeks has been...challenging.

Jason and I experienced the death of our puppy Sawyers. He jumped out of the car window and we weren't able to get to a Clinic fast enough.

Had a conflict with my roommate that has left a huge mark on my soul. Words said, even in anger, can cut deep and leave a mark that will be with you forever.

I've started developing my idea of the human soul. Everyone I've ever talked to see it as the sphirical ball of bright light that is housed somewhere in your body, most generally people think in your throat. The past month has made me rethink that.

I think souls are ever evolving. Sometimes parts of them die (losing someone you care about, or being hurt by a friend), parts are reborn (rekindling a lost friendship, moving past the mourning stage), parts become swollen ( when you realize you love someone more than you ever thought), and parts get added (when you meet another person who comes to mean so much to your life). I kind of think of the soul as a bumble ball (anyone remember those?!?!). Lumpy and mishapen. Its like a handmade quilt. There is a story behind every knot. Every dropped stitch. Every color. I don't think soul always burns bright white, either. I think it can sometimes fade to a soft glimmer. I think sometimes it can surge to be blinding. I think the soul is housed inside our hearts, because only those closest to us know our true souls. Its only those that we let into our hearts that can touch our soul.

This past month has been a month of evolution for my soul. A large part of it died on that road with Sawyers. A part of it swelled to a size I can't even begin to describe because of Jason and his actions the week after. A part of it was killed yesterday with angry words that hit like shrapnel. A part of it has been reborn because of a friend coming back into my life at the perfect moment. A part has been added because of an aquaintanceship that has turned into a best friendship. I have seen friends stand up for me, bend over backwards for me, and punish me. I guess as I evaluate it, my soul is probably a lumpy, bumpy ball. But its ok, because the bigger it is, the more I have loved and been loved.

Pay Day

Whoo-freakin-hooo....its my first pay day with a big girl job. It was soo cool logging in and seeing that paycheck there. Even though it was smalled than most of them will be, its still more money than I've ever made working. Even though Monday its all going to be gone because of this weekend, I am still so stoked. I'll start saving next check.......

My life is going really really really well. Its kind of scaring me. There's only one little glich in it, and I have a feeling that soon its going to become an even bigger glich, but for right now I am just ignoring it.

Things I am most in love with right now in my life:

~The Lord and His greatness
~Jason
~Sawyers
~Nintendo DS
~This weekend hopefully being amazing
~My awesome roommate Tatianna
~Getting my paycheck and spending it on someone I love
~My job
~Facebook chatting all day with Amanda
~Knowing what true happiness is!!!!!

First post

So the more I reflect on my job, the more I realize this is going to be an amazing stepping stone into a really great career. I have known for a while that facilitating higher education potentials is what I am really fit to do, especially when you're trying to market an amazing university like A&M. It really just makes it simple. Even though this summer is kind of quiet, aparently this is going to be the calm before the storm in the fall. Oh well, I'm looking forward to it.

First paycheck will be Thursday. Whoooooooo. I will offically have $37 in my retirement fund. Just another 40 years to go until I can retire to the beach. Or something like that. Still trying to find a healthcare plan that fits and won't destroy my budget every month.

I can't wait for Saturday. Its going to be amazing. I hope... :-)

Ok, back to organizing orientation material. I still feel funny playing like a grown up when I'm still such a kid inside!