So I have come to realize that my life right now is pretty great. Yes, there are moments when I think "Geeze, this sucks" or I get stressed out over something stupid. I've realized, with the help of a lot of my close friends, that I get too worried over small things. And that the big things I do worry about, I can't do anything to fix, so why get so stressed over them? Right now, for the time being, I have everything I need in my life. I have an amazing boyfriend who loves me. I have a handfull of friends that I would trust with my life and know they wouldn't hurt me. I have oodles of aquaintances that entertain and amuse me. I have an apartment that I love. I have parents who would do anything for me. And I have an amazing God who gives me only what I can handle, and then helps carry me through it. My God is an amazing God.
So basically, thanks to a lot of help from Amanda this summer, and a lot of time at work to reflect on things that are happening and how life is changing, I've decided to take a conscience effort from now on to let things go. I can only determine my actions. I can not determine how other people feel or react to my actions. And when everything gets a little overwhelming, I've learned another thing from Amanda....margarita time.
I <3 you!
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Friday, August 1, 2008
This is meaningless rambling....
so enjoy it.
Not much going on. Pay day today (big Wh08p!) to that jibberjabber. No fun stuff is going to be bought this paycheck though. Instead, this is the list of things I am buying: curtain rod, blackout curtains, memory foam or down padding for my bed, new sheets, a new comfortor, a tv stand, and a new coffee cup. I figured that with my desire to leave a lot of things behind me, getting new bedding would help me feel like I had done that. And my bedding now is ugly.
This Sunday marks 4 weeks since we've lost Sawyers. I miss him so much. He was so darling. Such a precious little angel.
Things I am loving right now:
~Jason and how amazing he is to me
~My parents and how they support me even when I'm sure they're tired of it
~Mango Habanero wings from Buffalo Wild Wings
~coffee with regular and french vanilla cream
~swimming with Tati
~still chatting with Amanda all day long on facebook
my life and how much no matter what challenges come up, I have people who love me.
Not much going on. Pay day today (big Wh08p!) to that jibberjabber. No fun stuff is going to be bought this paycheck though. Instead, this is the list of things I am buying: curtain rod, blackout curtains, memory foam or down padding for my bed, new sheets, a new comfortor, a tv stand, and a new coffee cup. I figured that with my desire to leave a lot of things behind me, getting new bedding would help me feel like I had done that. And my bedding now is ugly.
This Sunday marks 4 weeks since we've lost Sawyers. I miss him so much. He was so darling. Such a precious little angel.
Things I am loving right now:
~Jason and how amazing he is to me
~My parents and how they support me even when I'm sure they're tired of it
~Mango Habanero wings from Buffalo Wild Wings
~coffee with regular and french vanilla cream
~swimming with Tati
~still chatting with Amanda all day long on facebook
my life and how much no matter what challenges come up, I have people who love me.
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